[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Aw, you just ruined my dream of having a Blackberry and it being awesome. Poo on you dream ruiner. lol Okay...why do all these fancy phones they come out with secretly suck really hard?

:D I don't know why, but I've been injecting...interjecting...injuicing? 'fucking' in a lot of words.

So I guess there's at least one pro to always being alone when I watch movies. No one to ruin it by yap-yap-yapping.

I haven't taken a single picture since Nick stole my fucking camera. Except once I accidentally took a picture of my nose with my phone, but that doesn't really count.

lol I said a whole lot of friggin stupid retauded shit. But no, hell no, fucking no I would not eat chocolate covered peas. But chocolate covered peanuts are good, so there's that.

That is gay. I don't even listen to the radio anymore. It's always cds or ProjectPlaylist at home.

The new edition???? I'm so jealous!! I want to see that movie so hard!

Yeah, goram is the curse word from the old show 'Firefly' and that movie 'Serenity.' I say it all the time. I have no problem with needing to see a shrink, it's just that the last three didn't help me at all, so I want to make sure I find a good one. You shouldn't bottle things. That's what I do, and it's not working for me. Yeah, it does suck. But there is no perfect job. I think I could handle all the shit at work if I wasn't so messed up already.

Wow they're all gone! It's like a fresh start, a clean plate. Er...clean slate, right? lol Plate.

God, I don't know how we managed to function in everyday life let alone graduate. At least we're less stupid now. You less than me. I still get those times when I stop and realize how stupid my thoughts or words are, and I think, 'God, will I ever not be a dumb-dumb?'

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Haha well would you rather get it and it mess up on you and then you have spent all that money for a piece of shit, or have someone tell you before you spend all that money? I don't know. So far, my new phone has been really good, but its so simple, which might be why.

...huh?

lol Yeah, that too. But don't worry, I have to watch a lot of movies alone too. Hector is either at work or sleeping. So either way, I'm by myself.

Haha wow. I take pictures of the dogs sometimes. Hector got me a new camera, so I feel bad if I don't use it at least a little. But I don't think I've taken a pic of myself in a long time.

lol Chocolate is always good, but that doesn't mean that putting it on something else is always good.

Yeah. Well Hector listens to it all the time cause he's always driving around on base, so he comes home telling me about this song or whatever that we'll donwload. When I go out on the rare occasion, I just listen to the preset stations that Hector put up cause I'm too lazy to search through everything.

Yup yup! haha You want it see it so hard??

Wow, nice curse word. I don't either, but the one I saw did all the talking, so I never got to actually say what was going on. So now I'd rather just talk to myself or someone else, but I don't usually have someone else to talk to cause I either just met them, or all the people I already know are busy, or its at a weird time, or something.

Clean plate, clean slate, whatever. It all means the same! lol

lol Ohh, I've had my moments. Especially with Hector. I've said a lot of stupid things the past couple of months, I just never remember them. lol

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ok, question. Do you want me to keep deleting everything we say? Like, just leave the last ones that we've put up, or whatever? I can't think of how to ask that question. I'm sick, so my head is all...blah!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: So you comment the stupid moments page, or whatever its called, but not here? Wow, smooth!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, be practical like that. Of course I'd rather be warned first. Geez, why do you gotta go and use your common sense? :P

Huh huh?

Yeah.

Mmm now I want chocolate.

Yeah, I want to see that movie so HARD! I have no idea why I started saying that, but I did, so there it is.

Well, I pretty much have to see a doctor or I'm going to start completely losing it. I'm kind of falling apart. Er. As in, it's not like I was all that together before, but now I'm totally f'ed up.

You need to remember them!!

Nah, we can leave everything now. I'm going to be a lot more carefuler about using names.

Sorry! I just didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything. This week - this month has sucked balls. Nasty balls.

You know how I told you I asked off of work the weekend after Thanksgiving? Yeah, my biznoss (bitch+boss) just ignored my request and didn't even tell me that I couldn't not work. So I found out I was working just the other day, and I already had tons of plans made. So now I have to change all my plans, and gorammit I needed time off!

AND...I've been sick for the past week and a half, but I've been going to work and working hard through it. Then Wednesday, I missed a class because I was sick, and left work a little early. I didn't work Thursday, then Friday I couldn't come back to work after my break, because I felt like shit. And then Saturday I felt like even shittier shit, so I called in, and my biznoss accused me of faking sick because I was scheduled to work a register. WTF, mate!? Now we have to have a "talk" which is just effed up timing because I needed to talk to her in a civil manner about how much of a cunt she is to me.

AANNDD...Saturday night, some asshole broke into our house while we were home.

God I wish I could get plastered. Like shitfaced, falling down, oblivion drunk.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: lol Cause I'm a very sensible person!

I don't know...I don't remember. I worked my first weekend on Friday, Saterday, and Sunday night. OMG! I'm so tired!

I just had some chocolate chip cookies! MMMMMMMMMM

Haha Wow, it sounds so funny, now I want to say that!

Really? Have you talked to your mom about it?

I know! I've been trying. I'll remember it sometimes, but then when I get on the computer, its like it all goes WOOSH! out of my brain!

Ok, good. Cause I'm eventually going to forget about deleting them. So I had to be sure.

Really? I don't doubt it. This week is going to suck nasty hairy balls cause I have to work Thanksgiving night. And! I don't get to come home for Christmas! SO GAY!!!!

That sucks! Are you still thinking about getting a different job? I can't complain a lot about my job cause I only work weekends, plus Thursday for this week. Then when Christmas is over and I start working at the center I'll work from Thursday to Saterday from 10-6.

For real??? OMG! I'm sick too! I've been sick for a little over a week. I have another uti and its killing me! I finally went to my doc to get a subscription for it, but on top of that, I totally know how you feel. This weekend though, because of my uti, I had to pee so often, but I couldn't cause we were so busy. And since I was working the register and taking pics, I couldn't leave. It was killing me! My boss is a bitch, but she's not that bad.

Wow, while you were home? What happened?

Really? Come see me! We have enough alcohol for you to do that!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Compared to me you're Thomas Paine. Wham! Historical joke! Get it? Cuz he wrote Common Sense!! LMAO Dood, I hope that was the guys name...

Do you think it's going to be a good job though? Hard but good pay so worth it?

MMM Chocolate chip cookies. My mom bought some, but they were chewy, and I was like, mom, you can't have chewy cccookies. They have to have crunch. And the chocolate should be gooey.

Yeah, last Friday I had a mini melt down. I saw on the schedule that I was working when I'd asked off, and I drove home literally screaming and I said cuss words I didn't think I knew. So I talked to my mom a lot, and she was worried because I've been feeling like doing something reckless, and she was worried. So we're making appointments soon.

I actually don't work Thanksgiving, but I'm still pissed that I work Black Friday.

The whole thing about getting a new job is that the economy is so fucking sucktastic that I'm afraid if I get fired or quit there won't be anywhere to go. I'm thinking seriously about transferring to Canyon, though. I'm actually going to that store with another girl from work to check it out and maybe talk to their manager.

Oh damn, that sucks. God I hate sicknesses. Like it sucks that people have to get sick. Someday in the future, no one will get sick anymore. Or if they do, we'll have nanobots that work as anti-ickysicknessgerms that'll wipe it out in a day.

Yeah, while I was home. I was in my room watching Life on Hulu and working on my term paper. I heard weird noises, and at first I thought it was the movie, then it happened at a quiet part, so I paused it and listened, heard another noise, and then Bishy barked twice really quietly, and I figured it was the dogs being dufuses. So I went out, and my mom asked me if I was just standing at her doorway, but I had just left my room. I was like, "ZOMG, are you serious? That wasn't me." So I turned on all these lights, and I got the porch light, and when I glanced out the front door I saw our garage door was open. So apparently, someone has a thing that will open our garage door, and they came in and were literally standing in my mom's doorway about thirty seconds before I left my room. We had to call the cops, and we were freaked out. Damn, it was insane.

Dood...cool...alcohol. Actually, I am going down to Fort Worth soon to see my dad, since I was supposed to see him this weekend but my biznoss won't let me. I wonder how far it would be to your place? lol

But seriously, I just cheered myself up by downloading a Banana Phone ringtone to my phone!!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: HAHAHAHAHA You're funny! I don't know if that was the dudes name or not! HAHA But yeah, I get it!

Yeah, totally worth it. But I mean, I work a lot just for the weekends, so its really not that bad. And I mean, its just the weekend. Hector's going to try and do volunteer work out there so it won't be that bad.

I like chewy cookies. Some cookies are good with a little crunch, but I like them to be chewy.

Well that's good. Are you starting to get closer to your mom now?

Well, most jobs don't. But since this is a santa thing, its not all day, its just at night. So its really not that bad. And Hector is going to come out there so I'll still get to be with him. I don't mind not going home cause I wasn't there for Thanksgiving last year, but I'm sad I don't get to go home for Christmas.

Really? Well that's cool. Canyon could be funner anyways. It would be new too! But I know what you mean. The only reason I got a job here was because I'm a military wife.

I know, right? Its gay. Especially when you're up all night working and you feel like shit.

OMG! I would have been freaked out too! That's so crazy!

Its about...2 hours from here. I think, maybe a little more. But you should totally come for a little while!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I feel like such a dork for making that joke...but it's only because I've been watching Liberty's Kids. Which still makes me a dork...but a dork with and excuse!

Well that sounds cool.

Some cookies are best chewy. Like oatmeal raisin! ZOMG Now I want some! It's weird, but the bestest ever oatmeal raisin cookies I've ever had are from the cafeteria at BSA hospice.

Well...I mean, sort of. We're both so temperamental that sometimes it gets bad, but we try to talk to each other now. And we watch House together Tuesday nights, so that's fun.

Does Hector not get time off for Christmas holiday?

Yeah, I mean I know that it would be LOADS less pressure, which means less Nazi-ish work environment, which means no more me pulling out my hair at the end of the night. It would suck that it takes 15 minutes to get there, thought, since it takes like 4 to get to the one I'm at now. I'd just have to get used to leaving earlier.

I know. And being really sick and being accused of faking it by your biznoss sucks hard too.

Yeah, it really was. I slept with my lights on that night! And a phone under my pillow, and a walking stick by my bed. It was pathetic.

Dude, I totally should!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: HAHAHA Well, I guess its ok if you have an excuse.

HAHA Wow. I like chewy peanut butter cookies!!!! MMMMMM And white chocolate macadamia nut cookies!!!!! I had some of those for lunch, though I'll probably throw them up here in a little bit.

Well that's good. I actually miss my mom. I even told my dad I loved him the other day.

Hector does, but I don't. I work Christmas Eve, and for us to be able to go, he has to put in a form saying that he's going to Amarillo for leave or just a pass or something, but everyone wants to do that and if you don't do it at the right time, you won't be able to. So then we thought about coming in for New Years, but we might be able to then either. The military is stupid.

Yeah, well, sometimes leaving earlier to work in a better environment(I'm totally not all here right now, so I don't know if I spelled that right) is worth it.

I know. I think I'm getting worse. I started throwing up last night, and I threw up all the medicine my doc gave me for my uti. So here in like, 10 mins, Hector's going to take me back to my doctor so we can do something about it.

Ohh wow. Well me and Hector sleep with pocket knives on our windowseel...seal...seel? I don't know, and I don't care. I'm too loopy right now.

You totally should! When are you supposed to be coming down?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I always thing that people are being sarcastic when they type 'hahaha'.

Okay, chewy white chocolate macadamia nut cookies are good, but peanut butter cookies should be crunchy. lol Don't throw them up, cookies are always worse the second time around.

Wow. I saw your dad at Hastings. It was weird.

lol Yeah, I agree the military is totally stupid.

Why are you totally not all here right now? Or, right then, since now is later than that now.

I hope you get better!!!

lol Windowsill, I believe.

I don't know yet. First I have to talk to my biznoss.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I saw Twilight today!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ohh, well LOL. Is that better?

I like the peanut butter cookies my mom makes where the outside has crunch, but the middle is a little soft. MMMMMM Now I want to go home to eat cookies! I know! Thank God I didn't!

Really? Did he say anything to you? Or, you him?

I hate the military. I mean, love some of the benefits, but hate the military itself.

Cause I'm taking 4 different pills from my doc, and one of them makes me kind of loopy.

Me too! Being sick is shitty!

lol Well, I had most of the word right.

Really?? Was it good? I hear lots of people talk about how "over rated" it is, and because of that it made the movie kind of sucky. I was waiting for it to die down here cause the movie theater is always crowded when a new movie comes out.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah. It's just that I read 'hahaha' or 'hehehe' as sarcastic.

Mmm, okay those cookies sound good. I want a cookie :(

Yeah, he came up to me and said hello and asked me about school and told me he saw my mom. I said school was fine and that I knew he saw my mom. I didn't say anything else :P

Yeah, ditto, minus the benefits part.

Aw, sucky.

Okay, Twilight was...well it was like...there were parts where it was obvious they were omitting or condensing, but it's a long book in 2 hours so of course they had to. But there were tons of parts where the dialog, if not the actually action, matched exactly. And the James fight scene was a bit of a let down, but what can you do. But yeah I totally can't friggin wait until New Moon comes out, but then I kind of totally can friggin wait because New Moon was my second least favorite book in the series.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ohh. I usually put it up when I actually go "hahaha" out loud.

Yeah. Well, I just got through with Thanksgiving lunch, so I'm most deffinetly not anxious for a cookie right now lol

Lol What an exciting conversation you two had. He didn't tell me he talked to you though.

Well, I haven't read the books, so maybe I should read the books before I see the movie. My friend here just got through reading the books, and said she loved them, and her roomate read the books, so maybe I should too.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Ooh. Well now I know!

Don't make me jealous. I haven't had a cookie or Thanksgiving food.

Yeah, well, your dad creeps me out, so...there wasn't much I had to say to him. I've actually seen him in there several times, but I always walk right past him pretending to look really busy. No offense to you, but well you know your dad.

GASP

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: We wouldn't have had Thanksgiving food if we hadn't gone to Golden Coral. Neither of us cooked for anything.

I do know my dad. Since I've been gone though, I think I almost miss him. I even almost miss J.P. I know, right?

Nope, not yet. BUT! I went to see it again tonight with Hector's parents and finally got to see the end! OMG! So awesome! I'm ready for the next! Now I REALLY want to read the books now though!

Ohh wow! You know, lol, I got on Neopets the other day! I don't even know why, I just did.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Golden Corral, I used to friggin love that place. ZOMG, now I want some of the rolls and mashed tators they have. :(

Huh, so absence really does make the heart grow fonderer.

Yeah, if you don't read those books I'm going to drive down there, tie you to a chair, and force you to read them. MWAHAHAHAHAHaa...

lol Well, some of those games are fun. I think I would've done better on Typer Shark if our new keyboard wasn't so ... weird retauded.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I had 2 of their rolls, and A LOT of their mashed tators! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I guess so. I was so upset when I found out I wasn't going to be able to go home for Thanksgiving. I almost wanted to cry.

Lol Well hey, if it lets me see a familiar face, I won't read them!

Lol Our keyboard, I've spilt so much dr. pepper on it, and it still works pretty good. Except our space key. Sometimes it feels weird when it goes down, but other than that its pretty good.